Let me introduce myself

I am a 20 something year old single black female trying to get at the top of life's ladder. My life has been filled with bad luck and tiny burst of miracles. Confused? Yea? Well sometimes so am I. Just when I think my life is a bottomless cesspit of bullshit, I get a tiny burst of miracle. It takes me by surprise and at that moment I think, maybe just maybe I am destined to be something great. And then the bottomless cesspit bullshit of a life thing happens again.

I enjoy writing and reading I've enjoyed doing that since I was a child, I hope to write a book in the future, but at the rate I'm going that's probably never going to happen.#SIGH. So I ask you why am I not hopeful that I will write a book in the future? The Disney in me should be bending over and backwards to succeed my dream. Whatever life throws at me I should overcome just so I am able to fulfil my dream. But my life is far from a Disney flick, I have no soundtrack of encouragement, and I am yet to see a happy ending on the horizon. But maybe I'm onto something. 

I regularly have sleepless nights, I used to pride myself on sleeping through any problems I have, sleep was my comfort,companion and lover  but now insomnia is creeping between my sheets and digging at every dream, fear and trouble I have in my head. You see its the lack of realising my full potential that keeps me awake. My being tells me I am suppose to be something, something more than what I am today, no more ignoring that part of me I am going to find the drive of self-actualization.


I must try to create my own "happy ending"

• REALISE MY POTENTIAL
• BE TRUE TO MYSELF
• GET FIT
• FIND LOVE
• LIVE FOR THE MOMENT 

I am going to be my very own Princess Tiana (Don't roll your eyes) and chase my dream

I'm going to take the cards that life has dealt me (may I add a shitty hand it is) sit down, put on my best poker poker face and try very hard not to fold. 




PEACE&LOVE